Reminiscence

Come here out of your reverie
We will see the life we were to lead
Do I look familiar, do I remind
the time before the moment...
that changed our lives


      Come here, it's nothing you haven't seen
      Just the moments...between you and me
      Remnants of memories deep inside your heart
      I know you will find them,
      Just look into my eyes


Why can't you see the fire burning
The eternal love draping two mortal bodies...
that we had vowed


     I try to conceal the day that brought you here
     But in this reminiscence of past
     There is a picture of his smile
     That now twinkles in the sky
     Amongst the stars...


Cry just cry....

Longing

Where are you tonight?
Look how the starry night beckons
Your face still a silhouette in my eyes
An image wiped off by my tears in minutes


   How I hold on to your voice, deep inside
   It whispers to me on such starry nights
   The gentle wave of your hand in that sea (of love)
   Kept me floating when drowning was all I wished


Your smile like flowers dampened in rain
Seeking memories when it never stayed away
To the world it's a false conception
that 'we' faded away...
We are just locked in a moment
Lingering...but we will breakaway


   And tomorrow there will be reasons
   For this loneliness we shared
   And tomorrow there will be laughter
   After this aeon of sorrow we beared


And tomorrow I will be...
Will you be there???

This Place

Those scenes of a game
played so well
Still linger on as the drapes
that closed their eyes still dwell


     Where those stretching arms
     Never went unheld
     And whispered, the only words
     that ever made sense


Where the silence never haunted me
Coz I could hear you breathe
There was never any struggle seen
As I would always lay in defeat


    Where we, standing in this blessed place
    Watched the fields we were to reign
    The time would hold its petty hands
    To watch the moments...serene


Heaven sighed, when I looked into your eyes
Heaven smiled, when you lay beside


    The seeds of a thousand
    dreams, we conceived
    The flashing by of 'his' face
     Each time you spoke to me


The fascination with darkness
Though we would never sleep
The innocence in my naive thoughts
That you could always read


     Where the passion and its voices
     Still echo in the air
     The sun would shine
     To bring a smile
     Upon your lovely face
 

And while sometimes we made promises
We could never keep
Nightmares wouldn't bother me
As you were like a dream


    Heaven sighed when I looked into your eyes
    Heaven cries when you are no longer beside

AND...

And there is nothing left on this road to travel
The days are slipping away from me
Through the darkness with weary eyes I travel
Temptation, the only ally, deceits


     So the angels I have started to see
     Have they come here to take me away from thee?
     His shadows reflect (away) the lights of divinity
     Shrouding, emasculating the hollow soul in me


There is nothing left in this darkness to seek
These trees, they don't even mourn for the weak
Your solemn eyes are the only relief for me
When defeat is all they silently see


    And I wonder how the years passed us by
    And I don't know when your tears started to dry


And I wish somehow this death was dwelling in my dreams
But the only dream (that dwells) is the death of my dreams

Memories

Could someone open the gates of this dam
The river of the memories could flow right out of sight


      Don't want to carry this weight
      Drenched in these memories
      It's hard to walk through life


Your world has long take you away
And I am left remembering and cherishing
the moments I never had


    I know it's time to end this prosaic existence
    And burn this craving soul before the curtain falls


And when you see me come clean, full of life
I wish your memory betrays you
And you ask me my name
       

A Goodbye in Solitude

No more swimming in the sea of love
No more the need to hold hands of time
Screams are silenced forever
And silence screams louder than ever
the name of departing love



Will you ever say my name and sigh
Draping the tears in ephemeral smiles
As I feel the winds carrying your scent
Drying whispers soaked in spirits dwell



No longer I stand in meadows of love
No longer I swim in seas of light
As along as I can drown in the stygian



For once the believer
Has given up forever...

Modena

To sing the story of my past
Someone runs out with eyes aghast
As the tears rolled down my bleeding face


      No one could hear my whispering screams
      A nightmare takes over thousand dreams
      As my buoyant life left without warning


She was the love I searched all my life
And the reason I still wait
But like the birds of winter
Her world took her away


       Even though my life is misshapen, so my face
       If not for hope I would rest my case
       Dreaming, Searching, Waiting everyday


The frozen love, the frozen lust
The redemption of time and tears I lost
I know it's written in my destiny


       And when drops of new dawn will feed this barren-land
       She will see what this mirror sees (that) I hold in my hand
       And She will comfort and heal me with her angelic eyes

Dreaming Eyes

Don't wake up on your dream
I can clearly see...


   At this time as your closed eyes speak
   Like the drops of early dawn
   The world just a theater of your imagination
   And you are a star newborn


Dreaming eyes do speak
Dreaming eyes so sweet


   What they say is just too hard to comprehend
   For a stranger like me
   But all I know these eyes take refuge in dreams
   To abate an aeon of lonely tears


The tears so bright
Shining in dark...


   Fear and anger in those eyes
   As they open (to see me) for the first time
   Horror and immense fright
   As they come in contact with
   these stalking eyes of mine


Her lips covered with my hand
As she tries to scream for help
                      ...but all in vain


    Don't look down upon me
    I am 'the one' in your dream
    Take my hand and dream
    We can make it real

A Silent Wish

So good, it brings a tear into my eye
So good, it calls my name and turns into silence


    And for all that I have said in my prayers
    You could let her down
    Just for a little while


But I am afraid she has gone very far
And all that I had has gone with her fire
Could anyone bring her back to me now


    Even though I know you have gone very far
    But still I plead bring her back to life
    Swallow this darkness from my life


So good, it brings a smile to my face
So good, it caresses me and shakes my credence
Tonight my head is filled with wishes
But everything I dreamt was gone in the fire


   Once more travel the world with me
   Just once more and nothing in world I need

The Last Sigh

Draped in misery, I finally reach there

The gate closed, snubbing my arrival

Should I open it?

Or should I keep these sins from reaching inside

   

        Away from his embrace, I fell for the obscure

        The clouds grizzle at my presence

        And this night shows me faces

        I have never seen before

        'Her' tears fall on me like the rain

I am sinking in this sea of guilt

How I wish you were here - holding me

But your presence will not comfort me, anymore

      Don't open this gate...

Coz your eyes won't believe the story that mine tell

It is only a matter of time

I can hear the ringing bell approaching me

and the weeping moon shrouding my existence

     Close your eyes and whisper my name

     I shall wait for the day when we walk together

     For I know your heaven will meet my hell

     and this aeon of atonement will get over... 

  

...Still Burning

Gone...
There is no one left here
Searching with false hope
and turning corpses to see,
but all are still
only time moves...on


     Came into the night
     Just like the darkness
     the sun rose nomore and
     death danced for days to come
     (But) when it was over
     all that was left was holocaust



I could feel the anguish in my heart
The pain of those I did not even know
(And) While we fought a battle we lost though won
All we could do with our helpless eyes
Was to see our Fortress burn...

Lullaby

Here in this still of the night
Where we lose our dreams
As those dreams yield a nightmare

     Where I am drowning
     In my poetess' crying eyes
     Will still be searching for you
     In your (favorite) place to hide

The final chapter to shelter(you)
From the fury of this callous nite
The struggle within and outside
The aeon of those sleepless nights
Has finally come to an end
             ... to an end

    How do I tell you the sun won't shine
    It will mourn behind the clouds with no silver line

How do I tell you the moon won't rise
But awake, it will witness the birth of its child

    And as a boy points to the crying sky
    We are still awake in this night
    that is trying to find some light


The holy season of my life
You changed my dreams
You shaped my heart
As I suddenly held my heaven

    But the sun has escaped into the night
    And my winters have turned so dry
    As I stand here to lose everything
                      ...that was mine


You try to ease this last goodbye
You touch my face
With hands divine
But these scars you leave forever...

    Your touch it is not to remain
    Coz it's your time to go away
    But we will be together
        ...somewhere better